Life ends before it starts...

Sajda was sitting in the first seat of the Company bus en route to office.  To describe her way of living will be similar to describe the word loquaciousness that proved she was energetic and go on the run kind of girl. Any damn fellow will be running for her throughout his life just to get mesmerized by her free falling hair and gorgeous eye, the only two things men get most crazy of by seeing any women.

Years ago, when I got first re-located here and took on the firsts of journeys in my third home, my bus, which shifts us from our locality to office and back, the day when my eyes stopped to twinkle and my mind ceased to think post describing her beauty with every passerby, I felt sarcastically that there is nothing extraordinary about her just making me feel the other way inside.  I was infuriated most of the times by her so called childish behavior never suited for corporate life. But gone are the days when our colleagues shall be strict and of villainous nature. Industry we are in makes us to work with those characters that are rarely qualified for sixth grade based on their way of living. Being Childish.  

Not even I was allocated in my first project I proposed to Sajda. There is one thing I must admit on. Men never think twice before deciding the girl and will never think even once to make them happy. For men, feeling the gal happy is only thing they know. My age was to feel romantic and I was romantic in every way I possibly could. I was never a person who knows to hide the emotions in heart and particularly when the gal who swept you of the feet and made you to jump topsy-turvy sits next to your cubicle, I wasn’t able to and hence spelt the three beautiful words assuring her that life for me was her and I was determined to make her life blissfully happy.

Happiest times were those which not only proved productive in love life but also officially getting our due of recognition. Spending coffee time and travel was most beautiful when we could well imagine years of our future. Literally and metaphorically we were together either in office or through phone calls, even in dreams, dreaming about a love story each of them playing the lead roles.

Sajda improved her way of living while with me from being childish to getting matured when demanded. She started taking decisions of life time which proved great for our future and ironic when we laughed over popcorn thinking the state of childishness she was earlier.

I used to dream about my future, my better half, and the way every fellow dreams of. For most of them it might have been a passing memory, for luckiest folks like me, time will come when we see that as a reality. She loved me as much as I loved her rather I love her. I would embrace her tightly and kiss her whenever I feel deserted. Shoulder for me is the only thing I rely upon to wipe my sadness. She might not be an angel for others, for me she was and is, might be no one borrowed my eyes to see her.  We never hesitated to shed our ego to be normal again. There wasn’t a day when I didn't get up with a smiling face to see her smiling face that was ready with a cup of filter coffee.

Those times went on for 4 years. But then, the inevitable happened. She became indifferent, impassive and her cheerful personality had diminished. "What happened to her"? I asked myself...Gradually, she diminished her phone calls to me. I tried cajoling her to talk to me but to no avail. Then, after weeks of cajoling, she finally told me that she had changed (she didn't know why, it just came all of a sudden). She told me that our characters do not match and sad to say that we should not continue the relationship. She implied that I'm a person who does not care much about the world around me (which is quite true as I don't trust friends and I'm quite a loner) She also said that there are small little things that also add up to her discontent. I was shocked and shattered ... I didn't know that she felt that way all this time... Well, I knew about my weaknesses but I thought that she accepted them. I cried and showed not the tears but the affection I still had in my heart. She said that it’s better for us to separate rather than go deeper into an unhappy relationship than is destined to failure (which is, sad to say, true). I am still in a deep depressed state. It’s been 2 years since she broke up with me...

I hoped to be with her again every second. It’s actually not her fault. She was doing the only sensible thing (to break up before we go any deeper). Sometimes, I feel like life is fragile.....

A beautiful thing like love can be ended abruptly that feels like a precious thing had been taken away from me...

Ladies Vs Ricky Bah Review

Ladies Vs Ricky Bahl is a about a Womanizer and Con Man who traps women and loots them with precision romanticism  and about revenge of three girls who plan a plot hiring a sales women friend. Climax proves who changes the idealism the protagonist or the Hired woman. As simple as pouring a local arrack in Costly Italian Wine Bottle to look dramatic romantic and designer one, new style used in bollywood.

The trend of taking a old plot , put a designer brand label shine it with typical youth lingo, hot shots and chasy screenplay is not new in bollywood and Director has perfectly done it. I should appreciate the director for his making style which is almost similar to Band Baja Bharaat.

Talking about the movie, Movie starts in Delhi where Ranveer flirts and traps a gal using family sentiments, Purani Haveli and etc and loots twenty lakhs. Next He travels to Bombay to cheat a Manager stating Hussains Art work. When that is media exposed another gal along with the Delhi gal shares the agony with the Bombay gal to confirm the three were robbed by same fellow. These three, hire Anushka Sharma, a talented Saleswoman Friend of the Bombay gal and plan to cheat Ranveer. The rest of the story falls in how Anushka Sharma plots the cheat Ranveer and does she falls in love with the conman or he falls for her, does these three girls get there money back is the climax.

Positives : Not bad screenplay , Nice acting and looks of Ranveer and Anushka, The Delhi gal(I don’t remember who is she) she is cute ,looks like girl next door and she is superb in acting , iAPPRECIATE, Nice editing and locations. Never feel bored making(though it’s a old wine in a new bottle) Cinematography was classic and suits the storyline

Negatives:  OLD CRAP CONMAN STORY , using baazigar dialog was sick, Har Kar zithne waale ko Baazigar kahte hain… How cum a big conman get Looted so cheapish  sinks logic in most part, Music not so great BG not mesmerizing.

I liked the cinematography in parts where montages were used, Goa looked sexy as usual.

Watchable if you more interested in pop corn than movie… But having said that, positives for Ranveer and the director to scale up in industry is more…Time PASS Entertainment from YASH RAJ FILMS.

OSTHE

Osthe , Dabaang Remake, Tamil version of a movie that created history in Box Office Collection,  is a Frame by Frame remake of original directed by Dil DHool Gilli Fame Dharani and acted by Young Superstar STR.  This movie is about a Police Inspector how he tangles with the badie and destroys him completely who has in course of getting elected in By-election kills STR’s mother. This story also revolves around emotional drama of Step Father ,Step Brother Mother Son relationship. 

Positives : Non Changed Screenplay from the original, Acted of Simbu and Sonu Sood, Some times Clicking Comedy and timing of Comedians including Santhanam,Thambi Ramayya and Mailsami, Editing, Music to some extend. 

Negatives : Little draggy pre climax and No Scope for heroine, Same monotonous Fight songs sequences and even locations. Some non bursting PJ (Poor Jokes),CINEMATOGRAPHY is bad

This movie is MASS, People who expect some logic and sense in subject don’t watch, if you want three hour time pass and entertainment, you can watch.

Though I like , I wish these mass entertainers are killing film industry and the standard of it. What to do, People Like it and the producers get money and hence they invest back on Mass entertainers. Any Time better that STR’s Counterpart Mass Movies.

Will Never create same magic as SALMAN as STR is STR SALMAN is SALMAN.

For Sure it will miss the DABAANG MAGIC.

OSTHE = SILAMBATTAM

Panjaa : Telugu Movie a Review

Panjaa a Telugu Movie starring Pawan Kalyan and directed by Vishnuvardhan is the movie I'm going to review now. Yuvan scoring music with Sreekar Prasad editing and PS Vinod handling the camera completes the crew. Its a Gang War Kind of movie with the protagonist being brought up by Jackie Shroff is loyal to his master. Like his brother films and a film of his own Pawan Kalyan chooses to act a role mostly based in Kolkatta. I smell there is something between Chiru family and Kolkatta. Atul Kulkarni starts his own Dada-Gangster-Kirana Shop after being Loyal to Jackie and hence becomes Badie II. Tanikella Bharni as Guruvaiya has done a decent job. Munna son of Jackie returns from Foreign just to be a bad guy a spoilt brat, a sadist enough to kill a gal and psycho enough to insult his fathers Henchmen and loyal-men. Then thanks to turn of events the power shifts from Jackie's hand to Atul's Gang making Pawan Kalyan a scapegoat killing his friends. Pawan Kalyan escapes to Sandhya's place (Yeah sorry forgot to mention ,Pawan kalyan's Love interest) to safeguard her. There is one more Goonda here.Pawan Kalyan kills him too. Well enough of RE Viewing the story lets get into critic shoes.

Movie story is collaboration of multiple Hollywood,Hindi,Telugu and Tamil movies. Vishnuvardhan is in Billa Mood of making old movies this time without crediting for. Screenplay by Rahul Koda (Who is he?) is worst. First half was literally irritating with three odd sick songs and a fight or two. Introduction of Pawan Kalyan is worst. Movie gives a punching (at least compared to boring first half) Interval block only to lose its speed in second half when story moves to the village. Only relief being short visit of Bhramanandam ,one of the greatest Comedy Actor ever to be seen in Indian Screen. Director has instituted a song for Bhramanandam making himself not believing his own script. Climax is what the the fight between Pawan kalyan and once loyal DADA(read as bro or Goonda for Jackie).

Sreekar prasad Most National award winning Editor failed to impress me. PS VINOD has not even delivered what he delivered in Tees Mar Khan. Yuvans worst performance. The bearded look of Pawan is worst when compared to my Bearded look I say. Sarah Dias Jones is below average heroines doesn know how to emote making her sick. The second heroine Anjali is better when compared to leading lady atleast she acted better than SDJ. 


This movie has no potential of making it into a decent screenplay as plot was week and hence all departments fell as a pack of cards.


This movie can even say remake of his own film Balu and I dont remember the second one. Remake of His dad's movie being a Do gooder with a flash  back village story. GOD Please make sure I dont go to his movie again. I would have better watched tomo's Booked movies OSTHE and LADIES Vs Ricky




Please don't watch even in Pirated DVDs. Watch Vijays movie if you want.

Mayakkam Enna Review

Mayakkam Enna , Tamil movie directed by Selvaraghavan, Dhanush and Richa playing lead roles, Ramji Kola Bhaskar GV completing the technical Team.
The story of Mayakkam enna is simple, Life of Wildlife Photographer, How the protagonist manages to Travel his life of being a Wild life photographer from a man with Photography as passion, Friends they have, the gal he accidently loves and marriages, plagiarism of his work, hatred, depression, suicide attempt, semi lunatic, power of women , pinnacle of life... This is the story as simple as candy.

With a close look to Selva’s previous films , there won’t be any difference of zero to hero kind of stories. This one is also a typical narration of his previous films. These films as his previous films are not for fun going audiences. Though the script calls for a mass, the narration and the way of filming describes as Class.

Straight away without re-viewing the story I emphasis on the positives and negatives of the movie. When talking about the positives , first thing comes to my mind is the narration and the way of film making which gives way scope to the actors, technicians to perform. That is very important and Selva has always mastered it. Ramji photography is classical as the story demands the same. The still shots and the montages when Dhanush explores forest are visual treat. Coloring and Tone is splendidly maintained throughout the movie. The Visuals in songs are classical. I don’t know why the entire movie was short in Bokeh style giving a blur or shallow depth to shots making it more appealing.

I Tweeted to Ravi K Chandran , stating the classical cinematography of Ramji. He replied stating that he was always Ramjis fan for his raw and real cinematography. That’s true. Paisa Vasool for the photography in the movie.

Dhanush proves he is a performer. His style and power of acting as a want to be photographer, sensual emotions, drunkenness, aspirations, shall do whatever to achieve goal feeling, psycho and lunatic acting, climax acceptance is performed with chanceless energy. He deserves applause.

Richa has seldom role to perform in first half and has shown tremendous power in second half. Displaying women power, and the acting is flawless. She is hot , thanks to cameraman.

Kola bhaskar has proved he is veteran. To master the art of editing with the shots given by Ramji is no mere work and Kola Bhaskar has challenged and won. I salute him.

Lack of BGM in first half makes you feel the screenplay is draggy but it is not so. Main theme music is played/re recorded multiple times in the movie with different tempos and levels is great. Songs suits in well and I liked it.
Places the dialogues are crossed over the limit, but that’s what typical Selva is. He makes for people next door and thats true.
Again , I confirm that this movie is not for Fun, its classic , its powerful.
My Rating : 4/5 Better than 7 AM review.

kathal Pyar Vairamuthu Gulzar

Love  is defined the best  in Tamil: தன்னை  மறந்த  நிலையில்  உருவாகும்  உணர்வு .

Meaning : Love is a feeling which happens only when one cant realize himself.

A spontaneous feeling of (overpowering earnest longing) attachment  (to God, a being, an object or an idea) that shapes up while you are in a state of forgetting yourself  and contemplating on the beauty and perfection of  God, the object, being or an idea. True love is a surge in feeling of becoming one with a being, an object or an idea.

Ancient Tamil poet and scholar திருவள்ளுவர்   (Tiruvalluvar) has described the Concept of Love in different stages in his collection of 1330 Thirukurals. Namely the chapters that explain Love are  களவியல் ( Surreptitious Love.  Verses 1081-1150) கற்பியல் (Monogamous Marital bliss. Verses 1151-1330) காமத்துப்பால் ( Treatise on Sexual love -  Verses 1081-1330 )

According to Arabic literature, there are seven stages of love.

हब – attraction, उन्स  – Infatuation, इश्क -  Love, अकीदत – Reverence, इबादत – worship, जूनून – obsession, मौत – death

The philosophy of Love mentioned in any form of literature and by anyone in any generation is common and substantial to any generation and walk of life. The language might be different but the glory of Love remains same.

Hub as defines as attraction is defined as   desirability, Lure or a pull towards you.  “Annalum nokinal avalum nokinal ” from the famous kambaramayanam is an exact example for this stage. The attraction of desire , the lure is sophisticated by the pair of eyes, intensity in the feel and the beauty beyond imagination.

The Lines of Vairan (Vairamuthu, My Teacher) is best suited here.

கைகள் நான்கும் தீண்டும் முன்னே

கண்கள் நான்கும் தீண்டிடுமே

மோகம் கொஞ்சம் முளை விடுமே ,கண் பார்வை முதல் நிலையே

Translation : Before the quartet of hands collage, two pairs of eyes meet. Seldom passion sprouts up, attraction with eyes is the first stage.

The similar lines of Gulzar says, the touch of eyes (sight), created slight attraction. The heart started feeling the attraction.

आन्खोने  ने  कुछ  ऐसा  छुआ  हल्का  हल्का  उन्स  हुआ

हल्का  हल्का  उन्स  हुआ  दिल  को  महसूस  हुआ 

Powerful lines of Mirza Ghalib has been used here. He compares the feeling of love as uncontrollable fire which is very difficult to be lit and once lit cannot be extinguished.

इश्क  कर  जोर  नहीं  है  ये  वोह  आतिश  ग़ालिब

जो  लगाये  न  लगे  और  बुझाये  न  बने 

Second stage of Love is infatuation. What I feel is no one can understand love who has not experienced infatuation. And no one can understand infatuation, no matter how many times he has experienced it. Vividly described by Vairan as 

ஆருயிரே என்னுயிரே உள்ளம் கொண்டது  ஊர்  மயக்கம்

இன்னுயிரே காதலில் இரண்டாம் நிலை தான் பால் மயக்கம்

And Hence people feel this as highly desirable malfunction of the heart which weakens the brain, causes eyes to sparkle, cheeks to glow, blood pressure to rise and the lips to wrinkle.

Gulzar Challenges Vairan here saying 

छूती  है  मुझे  सरगोशी  से

आँखों  में  घुली  खामोशी  से

मैं  फर्श  पे  सजदे  करता  हूँ

कुछ  होश  में  कुछ  बेहोशी  से   

Acme of Life is Love, says Vairan. These lines vividly describes the summit the person shall be reaching in his feeling. Vairan arues with Gulzar stating “Amrith (sacred water) flows thr my veins , my life is experiencing a new kind of pain unique only to me”.

மெய் தீண்டும் நேசம் தொடங்கியதோ

இது  காதலின்  மூன்றாம்  படி  நிலையோ

என்  உடல்  வழி  அமிர்தம்  வழிகொன்றதோ    

என்  உயிர்  மட்டும் புது  வித  வழி  கொண்டதோ

This stage is most heavenly and zenith of all stages. Post this stage the concept of advaita peeps in. The Feeling of oneness starts to flow and the process of destruction of self is started. 

“நாங்கம்  நிலை”(Fourth stage) is clearly depicted by Vairan in these lines.

என்  நறுமலரே  உன்னை  தொழுது  விட்டேன்

என்  சுய  நினைவென்பதை  இழந்து  விட்டேன்

அந்த  சூரியன்  எழும்  திசை  மறந்து  விட்டேன்

கண்கள்  தாண்டி  போகதே  என்  ஆருயிரே  என்  ஓருயிரே

ஒரு  காதலிலே  மொத்தம்  ஏழு  நிலை

நாம் இது  வரை  கண்டது  நான்கு  நிலை 

Having said that, I have serious questions here. Why does Love between the Genders of Homo sapiens is difficult to reach way point beyond the Stage three unless in seldom cases where the motive is of self-destruction of ego?

This stage crossing beyond third stage can never be possible unless there are so many obsessions having no means of realness and practicality. Satisfied Love can’t be in search of junoon , the பித்து  நிலை (Lunatic Stage).

As said, the stages superior to Junoon needs high amount of energy and passion to sustain and reach the atman , prime reason to live. Well interesting point is the amount of power of mind to revert back to normal stage is enormous than to complete this stage thus making the completion of stage possible only if there is passion. The Raag-ic sutras explained in Yoga sutras also accepts this philosophy .

A Combined explanation of these stages is very much needed. Reverence and worship goes hand in hand. With respect Comes worship. Sajda is the right word for the same. Conversion of Dvaita to Advaita starts only when there is complete respect for the Being. This being can always be representation of God, Brahminism, Love, Devotion for anything and everything experienced in nature.

என்  உடல்  பொறுல்  தந்தேன்  சரண்  புகுந்தேன்  

என்  உயிரை  உனக்குள்   ஊற்றி  விட்டேன் 

இதுதான்  காதலில்  ஐந்து  நிலை , நான்  உன்  கையில்  நீர்  திவலை

This Line is my favorite of Vairan. "நான்  உன்  கையில்  நீர்  திவலை" meaning I m a vessel in your hands.

मेरा  जीना  जूनून  मेरा  मरना  जूनून

अब  इसके  सिवा  नहीं  कोई  सुकून

“I have forget the direction of rising sun,I started worshiping you”. Worshiping your beloved, god etc means complete oneness , “सजदा”. Submission means Sajda.

“என்  உடல்  பொருள்  தந்தேன் ”. I would regard this as complete submission. Sajda. These lines makes me to quick remark on the language and literature are one and same with different script. The Feel is the same.

Here the stage one achieves has everything to do to with the feel of Existence as Oneness. Here the person actually relates the self-living with the breathing of object in question.

All these stages are infallible and these stages are been carried devout bhaktas and fanatic theists.

Till Here, the author(S) maintain(s) the sacred steps of Love. The stages , people experience in their life.

The torturous journey starts here where the Junoon (Mania) starts the final process of destruction. This destruction can lead to self destruction of EGO or in cases where there is unquenchable madness in can lead to destruction.

ஒரு  மூகதினால்  வரும்  பித்து  நிலை 

இது  மூசமில்லை   ஒரு  முக்தி  நிலை 

நம்  காதலிலே  இது  ஆறு  நிலை 

Vairan says this stage as பித்து  (Lunatic). And also adds by saying that this stage is a stage of முக்தி Salvation and not dangerous.

The Final Stage of Love is Death. Literal meaning can give raise to obvious reasons of lost and depression and sadness. But universal acceptance of this shall be the destruction of Ego(Fanaa) and Advaita (non Dualism).

இந்த  காதலில்  மரணம்  ஏழு  நிலை 

இது  இல்லை  என்றால்  அது  காதல்  இல்லை 

உடல்  மரிக்கின்ற  காதல்  மரிப்பதில்லை  மரிப்பதில்லை

  

If a person chooses these stages for a being , I doubt he can really cross the third stage, As the path thereof with a being shall be too torturous and unquenchable. This path shall be only valid for being if he/ she tries the path of Fanaa the self-destruction of Ego. The non-dualism path and its attainment shall be path of self-enlightenment and the process of Kaivilya (Singularity). The saints of these paths reach the Shirasha of Energy chakra.

Yogic process of attaining Kaivaliya can also be an example of these.

Vairan and Gulzar have impressed me to compare their styles right from Dil se days to Ravaan. They are uncomparable so is the Language they write for.

I would really like to recreate Ghalibs verse here… stating

“He compares the feeling of love as uncontrollable fire which is very difficult to be lit and once lit cannot be extinguished.”

Happy Blogging.

PS: Tamil spelling mistakes are inevitable thanks to editor used. Please ignore.

Dedicated this post to all those who sincere any relationship.

Penne

Alavilla magizhchiyai manathirku thanthai

Agathil olinthirukum aasayai koithai

Un anbal andavanukke poramayai uruvaakinai

Asai podum nimidangalil un punnagayai veesinaye!!!

Alaravaitha un pasam

Aakroshathil un penmai

Aalkadal pondra un Porumai

anaikatta un perumai

Anbiten asaiten aasaipaten

In nimidam porumadi

Nimidangal nindru vida aanayitten…

kannirandil

Balartha Mazhai

Bayangra Kaatru

Kizhikum Minnal

Karutha Karmegam

Jillendru Panithuzhi

Jallendra Thenaruvi

Azhagana Nila Velichem

Anbana Natchatram

Ivai Ellam nan Kandrenadi

Immaikul ozhindirkum un

kannirandil

Satisfied destiny

Destiny is what we decide? is it? I never believe that. Do I ? Should I ? Do I want to decide what my destiny is ? I never want to. Destiny is always said the path you attain or attend to reach so called Destiny. Hence the path. Is the path what we define is worth calling destiny.

You walk on a road for going to medical shop. Medical Shop is your destiny. Path can't be your destiny. Right ? Medical shop is a physical goal. Something like need to be  a millionaire. But in virtual goal or rather goal cant be quantified , like need to be happy successful, which always tend to relate with your mental equilibrium and hence destiny is defined as the path. Small shops which you reach and buy something leading to medial shop is called destiny.

Hence Never quantify your destiny. See destiny in as many shops you can. As well said, reach happiness in what you do, sleep well daily feeling you have reached as many shops as intended or dream of. At least be satisfied with having circumstances i have reached as many shops i could. Satisfaction remains main power behind your reaching destiny. Unsatisfied mind cant work to solve tomorrows satisfied job. You intend to reach 12km by lunch after a nap you planned to reach next 12 km to reach the destination. while having the nap if you are not satisfied that you are on a right path at right speed the journey of next 12km shall be difficult.  nature gives you tasks on short mid term long term basis. goals and destiny also varies as said. hence getting satisfied and happiness in these varied destiny is much more important than reaching the goal itself. Eat a chocolate  with a feeling that it sucks. You will understand the prime motive of what is being discussed.

You may come across lot of obstacles ,people will envy you, your self confidence shall be shattered never care for the same. Be satisfied for what you achieve and for not what you want. There can't be any time in the world which you can feel unsatisfied and still reap the fruity taste of it.

PS : Never Read the last page of the novel that makes you to come to reality.

PS1: I m not the best, but my sufferings taught me what i m capable of and what i'm satisfied of.

Happy Blogging

Nam Uravu

kalai aaru maniku endu

salaiyei thandi tea kadail nindra enaku

un darishnam en moksham

ethenic day endrai

en intha maramandaiku etta villai

nee indru selayil varuvayendru...

partha maru kanam sethen

ithu en rendam piravi

thai piranthal nee en tharam

indru nee en arai tharam.

aanal en adi enakku ipozhuthu vekkam...

arai adayil tea kadaiku vantha enaku

bus era en manam thudithathu

bus eriya un manam 

en ariige vandu vizhunthathu...

ithu kadhal endru nan kotchai padutha virumbavillai

iv uravuku per vaika virupam illai

nam uravu , or uravu

atharku nan thandai nee thayee...